Saturday 1/16/2010

I made sweet rolls for our group this morning, the yummiest thing ever made, and I ate two small ones along with my unsweetened coffee and small piece of vegetable fritatta. Luckily all my children inhaled the rest, leaving no left overs for me to say "no" to. God is good to me. Small piece of quiche for lunch with some chai tea. Planning on challenges tonight, going to a potluck dinner with a coworker of Hutch, and parties where the food is out all night are the biggest challenge. I resolve to take one plate for dinner, sit down and enjoy it, and not go back for seconds. There are three different people bringing dessert so I will have a small portion, but only if it's homemade. Nothing store bought. I will let you know later tonight that I kept my resolve.
I got up this morning at 5am and walked on the treadmill for 50 minutes and did an arm workout.
I will no longer try to live a balanced life. In the words of Yoda, "there is no try. There is only do or do not".
It's sunny, and 65 and I have nothing and I mean nothing to complain about.

Later that day...

SO.................... I DID IT!! And I totally skipped dessert, even my own homemade pistachio nut cake. I had a bite of Benji's. I had a delicious plate of tri tip meat with bbq sauce, one small white roll, one slice of tender pork, 1/4 cup each of beans and cheesy potatoes. Not exactly health food...but I had self control. Only one plate. I sat down and ate slowly and enjoyed it. Two bottles of water. And I'm going to bed at 9:30.
It feels so good to make these decisions..and YOU can do it too. If I can, anyone can.
Thank you for being my accountability, I was tempted to make myself a s'more when they were pulled out of the pantry and Hutch asked me, "do you want to tell everyone you ate that?" I realized I wanted more to say to you all, "I DID IT!!!"

One day at a time. And I am taking my friend Lisa's advice to pray. (what good advice) God knows my hair count, He surely is concerned with this struggle.

For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for the blessed hope—the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ. Titus 2:11-13